Right. As stated, my goal in posting was to 'try to describe my situation, in case it helps lend another perspective'. I assure you I have read studies (actually read them, not just the summary opinions), and I am both intelligent and educated. People posting here indicated they wanted to read another opinion, and read why someone came to an opinion other than their own, and that is what I have offered.
Your original post showed flaws in basic understanding. But let's start with this post. Summaries of research studies are not "summary opinions", they are abstracts which give the educated reader a summary of the research within. The opinion part, is called the discussion and even that has cited sources.
Going back to your original post about "regressive autism". Autism is not "regressive autism", it is or has been called: Autistic disorder, Asperger syndrome, Childhood disintegrative disorder, Pervasive developmental disorder. I am neuroscientist by training and children do not regress into Autism and it has nothing to do with any vaccine. That has been proven over and over and over. Multiple funding sources, multiple countries, multiple researchers.
So from there, I can tell you have not learned anything about basic research into vaccines. This is undergrad stuff, hell you could even explain this to a high school student. There has been connection with Autism to age of both the mother and father, but no, not to vaccines. I understand your wish to blame something else. You showed that by your first line: I have "multiple chemical sensitivity" (which is just a way of saying my body has toxic overload).
Let's see what the consensus is of medical professionals in regards to this: Many experts and major medical organizations -- such as the American Medical Association and the American Academy of Asthma, Allergy, and Immunology -- have stated that the connection between the patient’s symptoms and environmental exposures are speculative and evidence of disease is lacking. The American Medical Association Council on Scientific Affairs believes that multiple chemical sensitivity should not be considered a recognized clinical syndrome.
So, you have either found an unscrupulously doctor (I won't say MD because most people who try to diagnosis this are not) or have self-diagnosed. Then you tried everything to make it so you can have a safe baby. You took information, without the background to understand it, feeling understandably very defensive so when the doctor recommended amniocentesis you reacted "that could KILL my baby". There is a different level of risk for fetus than a born human. I understand that he was your baby in the womb but to a researcher, fetus.
And measles does not just kill. It also can cause pneumonia, which for a young child kills. 1:20, not 1:1000 but 1:20. Every twenty kids your child is around, you could cause him to kill one. That kind of callousness is horrifying. I can't stop you from risking your child's life, but at least go off somewhere where you are not going to harm others. Go find a group, like in Or where they all believe this crap and stay there. Don't get medical treatment, stay away from kids and elderly and the immune-compermised and live that way. But don't think your way is healthy, or not a risk to your child or everyone else. Btw, you also missed the damage that measles can do to the CNS. 1 or 2 out of 1000 get encephalitis. You also missed the possible damage to any pregnant women you happen to bring your child around. I'm sure they don't want their child to be in NICU because of your child. Or let's talk about Subacute sclerosing panencephalitis which also causes death. The kid might survive and then 10 years down the line, die because of being exposed to measles.
But that does not matter right? Because you are sure you know more than 1000s of researchers and MDs that have worked with this for years. They must be wrong and you are right because you are mom. Your poor child.
