So I took a few months off, and decided not to go back. My wife works part time but makes enough to pay our bills so anything I earn will be extra. So we decided I would start a company, to which I am in the waiting process right now to get the license through the State, should be a couple more months.
I was a cop, and I left for many reasons. I had definitely become burned out, and we were having MANY more physical and verbal confrontations with the public than when I started 8 years ago. I was making very good money at the end of it, 90k a year, and now I find myself having emotional mood swings trying to figure out if I screwed up and made the wrong decision. It's very hard to walk away from that kind of money to start a business since I have no idea how much I will make. I am also of the personality type that the grass isn't always greener, and I hate change. I can't figure out if all this is because I'm sitting here in limbo waiting for a license before the company can actually get going or if I will just always second guess whether I made the right decision. Also I had been a cop since I got out of college, so it was the only real job I had ever had. That probably also contributes to me being scared to enter the private field.
I also feel like a bum sitting around all day while my wife works 2 days a week. Although I do watch our children those 2 days a week which has been really cool since I used to work 50 hours a week minimum so didn't get to see them as much as I would have liked.