Had to vent at another colleague today. Nothing personal but probably more symptomatic of my frustration and misgivings at continuing to work at a big bureaucracy that fosters less and less trust in its employees and creates a culture of paperwork (don't tell me it's compliance, it's just pettiness of wanting to know what we get up to every single day; I believe in the former but not the latter - just don't treat us like dumb self-interested shits that will blow company money given any slack - having7 finance people overseeing 10,000 employees+ now that's where the problem lies).
What is ironic is that the higher-ups have their personal expenses, all and sundry, approved, no questions asked. I'm not yet at the "business credit card" level. They also get paid 5x more so there's no problem for them (unless they really have a massive spendypants mindset). However, us lower-downs have to go through the rigmarole when asking if this or that expense can be justified - e.g. is this a business expense that promotes you and the big entity you represent to the wider world? Of course my answer is yes. That's why I have requested it be treated as such. But noooo...it's not seen that way.
Now, before MMM I would have gotten het up and think "it's the principle of the thing" that MY business expense HAS TO BE approved. So I would have spent tons of energy (emotional, physical, mental) writing the tangible and intangible value of said business expense and ask Finance: "PLEASE APPROVE IT OR ELSE".
But today, I told my colleague (who is overseeing such things), "It's not worth my time."
In the past 6 months, I've given up asking for reimbursement for work travel (nearly $1K) and today, my business expense (which is my money pot - i.e. work has already given me the money but I need to spend it within their parameters) of around $5K. That's $6K or $1K a month since the start of the year. Am I crazy? The old me would have said yes. The new me says "Meh."
I'm being paid above average wages in an HCOL. I have better things to do than appease big bad bureaucracy coming down on me. My RE plan is there.
So you know what, $6K is a paltry amount to pay for my sanity and mental health! :-)