I've been with my current employer for about a year and a half. Starting at about Day 3, I got the vibe that there was some pretty major Kool-Aid drinking going on, but for the most part, it didn't affect me much, and I could ignore it. More recently, though, some things have happened that caused me to be pretty disillusioned about the place.
Two things are really keeping me up at night:
1. Putting two and two together on some recent comments, I have no other option but to believe that the unique skills/knowledge/offerings I bring to the table are not valued by the organization. Okay, fine. I know my work is appreciated by the people I serve, so I can live with that.
2. After hearing several pieces of new information at a meeting this morning, I have to conclude that I pretty much work for a corporate cult. This is an odd confirmation/realization for me. I kind of suspected some weird shit all along, but a meeting today pretty much solidified this understanding for me. The level of political bullshit that occurs there, and that people actively, happily participate in, is astounding.
I cannot drink this Kook-Aid. I do not play corporate bullshit posturing games "to gain visibility." But I can compartmentalize the bullshit for another year, at which time I plan to FIRE. If I last that long. I don't want to burn the bridge (I hope to do some consulting work after I FIRE), but if I end up with an epic FU story to share here, so be it. I'm ready.
The funny thing is I took the job not really giving a shit; I just wanted the benefits (read: healthcare coverage). Then I actually started to care about making a valuable contribution. Silly me. Now I have to get back to not giving a shit. Shouldn't take long, now that "I get it."
Thanks for listening.
Can any of you relate?