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Comar

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Crying for freedom
« on: August 31, 2015, 03:36:06 AM »
This is how I feel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLCEUpIg8rE

I can't say I'm being disemboweled but I'm starting to feel completely burnt out and crying for freedom. I work in health and taking care of people's problems and worries with the face of the caring/smiling health professional is starting to take its toll.

I'm not close to FIRE so I have no idea how I can tackle this. Also I commute 2 to 3 hours a day... I have a low mortage but job opportunities are very limited in my home town.

I'm just venting but of course feel free to give your two cents if you want to.

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #1 on: August 31, 2015, 04:01:37 AM »
If you're stuck in a bad situation, don't spend too much time here (or on facebook) reading about how all the people are flying to their early retirement and hobby jobs. Instead try to look for the good things in your life, and firmly imagine that your day of retirement will make all this worth it.

A recommended book: Man's Search for Meaning by Auschwitz survivor Viktor Frankl. He was able to go through the worst captivity imaginable and still maintain freedom in his mind. He showed that the will can be stronger than circumstances, and true freedom is in the mind, not the situation.

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #2 on: August 31, 2015, 04:49:44 AM »
I read through your other posts and at age 30 you are doing awesome.   I understand burn out as I worked as a nurse.

Like building your gym, it is one step at a time. You did not decide you needed a home gym and viola there it was. You shopped, added items and got to your end goal. People lose weight, obtain skills like learning to cook and save money all in the same way. You work to overcome the obstacles and make a little progress each day.  Have you made a chart of your mortgage payoff and increase in net worth?  Little steps. Sometimes due to circumstances beyond your control (stock market slides, muffler falls off the car) you have little slides backwards, but the general progression is forward.

Perhaps making a baby step each day and documenting it in a journal will be helpful. Many people here take great pride in the little things that add up over time.

Is there any possibility of other job or living opportunities? 

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #3 on: August 31, 2015, 04:50:51 AM »
Thank you 2Cent. I will see if it is at my library. Like you say, I should be spending way less time here. Something about visiting this forum gives me motivation but perhaps visiting too much will make my mind much to focused on something that is not going to happen tomorrow or even for the next 5-10 years.

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #4 on: September 14, 2015, 06:39:11 AM »
I read through your other posts and at age 30 you are doing awesome.   I understand burn out as I worked as a nurse.

Like building your gym, it is one step at a time. You did not decide you needed a home gym and viola there it was. You shopped, added items and got to your end goal. People lose weight, obtain skills like learning to cook and save money all in the same way. You work to overcome the obstacles and make a little progress each day.  Have you made a chart of your mortgage payoff and increase in net worth?  Little steps. Sometimes due to circumstances beyond your control (stock market slides, muffler falls off the car) you have little slides backwards, but the general progression is forward.

Perhaps making a baby step each day and documenting it in a journal will be helpful. Many people here take great pride in the little things that add up over time.

Is there any possibility of other job or living opportunities?

Thank you Potterquilter. A very thoughtful and encouraging reply. I've been meaning to reply to you for the past 2 weeks.
It's good to be reminded this journey is made of many baby steps. One day at a time. I have a mortage calculator I use every month to monitor my progress and it's fun to see the time needed to pay off the mortage is reduced each month.

I have job opportunities closer to home in my field but honestly I kinda want out of it. I've almost made up my mind 100% to quit my job next summer. I've only been working a 88% position at the hospital and I reduced it by 12% so that I could spend more time with my family. Because of commuting I was getting late home every day (and still am two days a week).

So I think my current job has too many downsides:
1. Only 88% position (admittedly my own choice)
2. 2-3 hours of commuting each day.
3. Paying almost a month's salary each year for the bus that gets me to work.
4. Really tired of my stressful and not so high paying job.

My pride tells me I can't accept any job opportunity because of my education but honestly I can't go on like this forever. I think I should be able to find less stressful job closer to home and even if it pays less I might be just as well off financially because of a) paying nothing for commuting and b) being able to work a 100% position.

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #5 on: September 14, 2015, 12:59:41 PM »
Thank you 2Cent... Like you say, I should be spending way less time here. Something about visiting this forum gives me motivation but perhaps visiting too much will make my mind much to focused on something that is not going to happen tomorrow or even for the next 5-10 years.
Hi Comar,
I can understand how reading about people who are achieving FIRE might be a little frustrating, particularly as your field is physically and emotionally demanding.
I found The Frugal Girl and The Non-Consumer Advocate pre-FIRE, and I still follow them now. Neither Kristen or Katy is close to retirement or even particularly aiming for RE, but their day-to-day lifestyles are very mustachian and the vibes are upbeat and positive.

http://www.thefrugalgirl.com/
http://thenonconsumeradvocate.com/


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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #6 on: September 14, 2015, 06:30:23 PM »
... I think my current job has too many downsides:
1. Only 88% position (admittedly my own choice)
2. 2-3 hours of commuting each day.
3. Paying almost a month's salary each year for the bus that gets me to work.
4. Really tired of my stressful and not so high paying job.

... I think I should be able to find less stressful job closer to home and even if it pays less I might be just as well off financially because of a) paying nothing for commuting and b) being able to work a 100% position.

Sounds to me that from the above that you already know what you should do and are just looking for a little push.  OK, we're pushing.

To me, it would be just insane for me to spend that much time commuting AND have it cost such a large proportion of my salary. (A full time job paying you 16% less but with no extreme commuting would be a financial wash.)   So, just take a deep breath and make the jump. You will be thanking yourself soon enough.

Good luck.

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #7 on: September 14, 2015, 10:56:29 PM »
> I have a low mortage but job opportunities are very limited in my home town.

Putting on my MMM hat for a moment:

"Sell your house and move to where there are jobs."

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #8 on: September 15, 2015, 02:55:35 AM »
... I think my current job has too many downsides:
1. Only 88% position (admittedly my own choice)
2. 2-3 hours of commuting each day.
3. Paying almost a month's salary each year for the bus that gets me to work.
4. Really tired of my stressful and not so high paying job.

... I think I should be able to find less stressful job closer to home and even if it pays less I might be just as well off financially because of a) paying nothing for commuting and b) being able to work a 100% position.

Sounds to me that from the above that you already know what you should do and are just looking for a little push.  OK, we're pushing.

To me, it would be just insane for me to spend that much time commuting AND have it cost such a large proportion of my salary. (A full time job paying you 16% less but with no extreme commuting would be a financial wash.)   So, just take a deep breath and make the jump. You will be thanking yourself soon enough.

Good luck.
Thank you Retired to Win. It's good to hear other people say my situation IS kinda insane. I think I've lingered so far because I'm constantly telling myself it is not so bad and many other people are far worse off.

> I have a low mortage but job opportunities are very limited in my home town.

Putting on my MMM hat for a moment:

"Sell your house and move to where there are jobs."

Thanks for your input. It seems I have to pick my poison. In my town I have a very low mortage but job opportunities are much fewer ( a town of 5k people). But in the city where I work there are tons of job opportunities but housing prices are sky high and competition for a place to live is rather extreme. I think I want to keep my low mortage and keep killing it. It's a perfect size house and we've put a lot of work into it. My town is very bike friendly and calm and it takes my 5 minutes to get literally anywhere. The city is big, stressful, loud and everything seems to be a 20 minute commute.

I want my nice little cozy quiet town... just plus a job :)

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #9 on: November 12, 2015, 04:16:51 AM »
A little update for anyone who might be interested.

I found a new job! Your support made the decision easier. I applied for a job very close to home and got it. I'll start in 2016. I really hope I like it and already it has many advantages. Commuting is vastly reduced and I'll be able to stay more at home because of that. The salary is higher, I mentioned a number I felt was right for the job and got it. First time I've been so upfront about the salary and happily surprised it worked out very well. More money for investments! Yay!

Thanks for your support :-)

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #10 on: November 12, 2015, 05:35:08 AM »
A little update for anyone who might be interested.

I found a new job! Your support made the decision easier. I applied for a job very close to home and got it. I'll start in 2016. I really hope I like it and already it has many advantages. Commuting is vastly reduced and I'll be able to stay more at home because of that. The salary is higher, I mentioned a number I felt was right for the job and got it. First time I've been so upfront about the salary and happily surprised it worked out very well. More money for investments! Yay!

Thanks for your support :-)

Yay!  I'm glad you found a new job!  As I read, I was going to comment that there are lots of health care jobs out there.  Good for you on taking a proactive approach!

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #11 on: November 12, 2015, 05:48:32 AM »
Congrats Comar!!!

Even if the job is slightly more stressful you will have more time to properly deal with that stress with your reduced  commute and extra $$$.

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #12 on: November 12, 2015, 05:55:19 AM »
Congratulations Comar!  So great to hear a success story.  Let us know how it is going once you have gotten started. 

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Re: Crying for freedom
« Reply #13 on: November 12, 2015, 11:04:04 AM »
Rejuvenation is the word I'm thinking!  A new job, a new start, a new commute. You will save tons of money with a shorter commuter, bus, etc.

We all need a change from time to time. I'm so happy for you.