Wreak havoc; say no a lot; get promoted.
This
Be less productive and make less money.
But also this.
Does that make any sense?
I want to find the joy in life again. I guess I have set GOALS for so many years now, that I'm kind of over it.
I had a great 2018 in running. Ended the year injured, spent all of 2019 chasing running goals that I didn't hit, dealt with 2 more injuries and setbacks, and was mostly unhappy through it all. I want to run for the JOY. No time goals. Just FUN.
I want to cook for the JOY in cooking again. We've been just putting one foot in front of the other to get food on the table, trying to hit a grocery budget (and failing), and trying to keep weight in check (and failing), and not enjoying making the 5 things we have time to make. I spent some time over the holidays cooking new things and it was FUN. And then I remembered - I used to do that a LOT.
Be PRESENT for my family and enjoy them.
Be KIND to the world. Kindness is pretty simple I think.
(So screw the race goals, the grocery budget goals, the reading goals)
Say NO to the BS at work (and to be honest, really really start looking for a new job because this place pays terribly and is making me miserable).
So NO to the outside/ family guilt trips. We go visit our families on the opposite coast every 2 years. We are due this year. It's my 50th this year. I made the executive decision to go to Hawaii instead, because that's what I want! So now the guilt trips "oh, well, would you consider sending the kids east for a week? 4 years is a long time to not see them!"
- First off, no. You can have the teen, but not my baby. He's 7. Just. No.
- Second off, planes fly in both directions. By my count you took 4 or 5 trips involving plane flights last year (we took one), and, um, none of them were to visit us.
- Third off, it's not 4 years, if we come next summer it's 3. And maybe we'll come for Christmas.
- Fourth, there's a non-zero chance that MY family will come visit this summer for a week, so that makes two weeks I'll be taking off (Hawaii + their visit), so adding a trip east in there ... nope.
I have no resolutions or goals, aside from giving myself the permission to HALF ASS everything so it's fun and not a chore.