Hello everyone! Long time lurker here, so long in fact that me and my girlfriend reached our goal of ~$800 000 some time ago and FIRE date is April 27th.
I live a frugal yet luxurious life in Sweden. I have a five minute bike ride from work as an IT consultant, I make above median money of which I save 66-75%, got 6 weeks of paid vacation, I set my own hours, come and go as I want and got a nice office meters away from the free fruit and coffee. Great boss and coworkers. We don't have nor want a car or a kid. Some times I think I might be living one of the most relaxed life in the history of humankind.
Yet I can't wait to FIRE and April 27th seems so far away! Since I told my boss, I gave him 6 months notice, I've been feeling stressed out to the point I've felt chest pains and pressure on my skull. I've been stressed at work before and I had a bout of depression when I divorced a decade ago, but this is a level of magnitude worse.
I don't want to be one of those that drops dead right after retirement though. I'm only 41. I don't know why I feel this way, which is different from before when the causes were obvious. At work I now mostly tutor my replacement and chat with coworkers.
It's not OMY, because I can't stand another day at work. It's not the money, I've got great confidence in my WR and flexibility. Also, I am welcome back to work within a year if it doesn't work out, so safety is basically guaranteed.
I thought for a while it was fear of missing out. A few friends recommended bitcoin a year ago and I didn't listen. One of them cashed out near the top, good for him. I'm still not interested as my current plan is solid, but I can't deny it was at times hard to see people surpass me in less than a year while I saved for the better part of a decade. My anxiety level correlates pretty good with the price of bitcoin. That would be ridiculous though, I'm filthy rich, why would I care about other peoples money for?
Mostly ranting here, I don't get much understanding from (mostly indebted) friends. They think my problem is the best kind of first world problems, and they are right.
/Anders