I strongly suggest reading the simplest, easiest book in the world “Who Moved My Cheese?” It has one of the most powerful questions I’ve ever seen posed: what would you do if you weren’t afraid? Your fear is ho,ding you back from enjoying a life with your husband that is worth more than money. You have enough. You have more than enough by every measure. Hell, your rental income alone covers almost half your expenses. You only get one life. That’s it! One. And no one on their death bed says, I wish I would have worked longer for that bonus.
Here is an exercise: imagine you have 15 million. Your health insurance is covered. Expenses covered. Now, you have nothing to be afraid of, what will you do with your life and your husband? Put your energy into that, not how to get more money, but what you’ll do when you have enough.
Then, after you answer that, gently slap yourself and repeat this in the mirror: Holy shit, I have enough!
Now live that life and don’t look back.