Wow.
I'm pretty shell-shocked, coming to the realization that I'm never stepping foot in that office again. My mind keeps wandering back to last week's uncomfortable leaving-scenario, and I'm trying to push that stuff out, and just look forward. I needn't think about those people there ever again. I didn't like the job, and had been suffering a terrible trapped feeling from perceived obligation to the boss/staff and guilt because I'd only worked there 4 months. Much soul-searching, the support of a close friend and this MMM forum full of internet strangers helped me to do what was right FOR ME, and GTFO. I was trying to please everyone else at the expense of myself. (Unfortunately, this is a mindset which girls tend to be brought up with, and it can be very detrimental).
I feel some kind of lingering bad juju about the whole experience of working there (go away guilt! look out for #1). But now I'M F***ING DONE! Let it go, let it go, let it go.
That said, two days into "retirement" and it's been great, so far! I've slept as long as I wish in the morning.
I've prioritized my guitar playing, and spent 4 business hours (or more) per day digging in to songs, techniques and my lesson assignments. Sat outside in the sun with my guitar. Reading my books! Play with my pets. No time crunch to get to a 9-5 business. I'm free! Free! FREE! The Who -->
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uRD_gIoVOmYA leisurely lunch, an hour of housework (desperately needed due to filth buildup from being run ragged on the working-person's hamster wheel). I take a relax breaks as I feel like it. Maybe later I'll go get a fancy coffee. (My vice!).
I can't quite grasp that this scenario yet... that the time... ALL THE TIME... is MINE from now going forward. It's a revelation. I'm guessing that I won't quite "get" it for a while, seeing that I'm a newly-minted "graduate."
So far, so good! Nothing but good times--what *I* want to do with my time--ahead.
-The Pigeon
I'm sure this cartoon has been posted numerous times, but, posting it anyway!