I FIRE'd last year, of course COVID ruined pretty much ALL my plans, so toward the end of the year, I thought, oh, hey, maybe I should just find a job since I'm not doing much else. You know how pretty much everybody here says that getting a job after FIRE'ing pretty much sucks? Well, they're right! I immediately felt the pinch, I lost all my free time and that made me completely miserable. There were things I wanted to do and couldn't do because I was scheduled to work. After almost a year of complete freedom, this was a real shock to the system. Having income was cool, but when the stock market can change your net worth by more than a year's worth of salary in a day, it's kind of hard to trade your valuable time for what feels like a pittance.
It's been a weird year for me in other ways. My older daughter moved far away to be with her fiance, and my middle child just left for boot camp a few days ago. I have cried a lot lately. It feels like what has been my purpose in life is pretty much over and that's really hard to accept. I kind of look around and think...so...what should I do? I have one high schooler left at home but she will be off to college in a year...so really...what am I supposed to be doing here??? I don't really have any idea, but I do know that my days of tolerating work that I really hate are over. Sometimes you have to do stuff to realize, nah, that's not for me. I feel like I complete spoiled brat, but this is where I am in life and I'm trying hard to accept it. Not gonna lie, the tipping point for me quitting my last job was my worry that if my son called from boot camp and I couldn't answer the phone because I had to work, I would lose my mind! I know what it's like to be in boot camp and call home and you just pray someone that loves you will answer!
Anyway, that's my story for today. I have no idea what I'm going to get myself into next, but whatever it is, it's going to be fun!