Thank you - I kept extensive journals for years documenting his behavior - keeping the kids in violation of the order, not paying support, etc. plus all the stuff I do on my own (like all the doctor's appointments that he never attends). I had slacked off recently and took my journal out yesterday thinking I need to pick it up again because he will probably take me to court again soon, since it has been a year since the last time.
I refuse to speak to him on the phone. He lies about content of emails - I mean, they are right there, in the message, and he will claim he was never told X or didn't say Y. I text him only for immediate things - e.g. The kids were supposed to be here at 6pm, where are you? I have the emails going back 6+ years now. I keep every one from him, school, nanny, lawyers, all childcare, doctors, etc. My lawyers have told me that I am by far the most organized person they have ever worked with.
I am afraid to represent myself in court. I have no complaints w/ my lawyers and they discounted their rate for the last two trials - although it is still extremely expensive. They are very skilled, honest, and really work hard for me. I trust them. His lawyer is very aggressive and did things like deposition all my neighbors before the last trial, sent people to pound on my door at 3am to see who was in the house (as if it was relevant, because it was only me and my kids - boyfriend doesn't live there. It was quite terrifying). It meant some legal costs for me because someone needed to attend the depositions and then we needed to order transcripts. So, she engages, along with him, in "dirty" stuff - and generally fails to produce documents for discovery and such, and it is all a bit more than I think I'd be able to affectively handle on my own.
Thank you all for the support. I keep doing my best and trying to keep an even keel for myself, and sometimes it is still overwhelming.
