This isn’t just about finances but…
I am really, REALLY struggling with the concept of putting a 3 month old infant in daycare. I live in an affluent part of the northeast where all the women at my workplace immediately put their 3mo or 6mo infants in center or nanny care and returned to work FT (or almost FT). Having the baby, taking your FMLA, and then immediately getting back to the career grindstone are the standard steps for any woman who wants to be “successful.” Care centers here range from $2000-3000 per month for an infant (6 weeks through 14-18 months). Nannies can’t be had for less than $15/hour. Home based centers are a more economical option, but finding truly objective and sufficient reviews has been difficult. With my commute and work hours, the baby would have a 10-11 hour daycare day.
I have my masters in the social sciences and after reviewing the scientific literature and the opinions of many different psychologists and individuals in the daycare industry, I just don’t know if I’m convinced that there is nothing detrimental about leaving particularly young infants in care 10-12 hours a day, 5 days a week. There is just no way that a center caregiver with 3-4 infants can keep all of them clean, fed and burped without some serious shortcuts on tummy time and other individualized stimulation. I also struggle with the idea that you can work in a demanding job, with long hours and a long commute and still be your best self for the 1-2 precious hours a day you get to spend with your baby (on top of cooking, cleaning and other life activities). Add this to the fact that high quality care in a center or with a nanny would eat up close to or more than 100% of my take home pay, and you have a less than ideal scenario.
Every time I try to talk to the other professional women in my workplace, I hear the same thing: “oh you get used to it”, “it’s only really expensive for the first couple years”, “the babies are socialized better there than they would be with me”, “of course family is the number one priority but it’s important not to sideline your career.” Most of these women make six figure salaries not including their partners’ high incomes, so $3000 a month is very do-able for them. Only a couple of brave young moms have admitted that they hate being away from their babies so long, and that they don’t think working is worth it right now, but that they just couldn’t see a way around it financially.
Right now we are deciding between me working part time and being a full time SAHM once the baby arrives. FT work just isn’t worth it financially or emotionally to justify the sheer amount of time the baby will be in care. PT work might not even be worth it if we are still spending $1000+/month to manage it. Ontop of everything else, I’ve definitely maxed out my growth at my current workplace and am looking into switching careers to something more fulfilling.
I guess I’m not really looking for advice, more just an affirmation that I’m not alone in this very sad sort of dilemma…