Call me whiny if you like, but please provide constructive feedback after a proper online beating.
So here is the situation, simply put, I REALLY hate my job, we want to start a family(clock is ticking, FAST), we have enough money to cover everything with just DH's income, so I can quit, take a break and have a baby.
The problems are:
A. I feel bad to just quit while my husband working so hard, don't want to leave him with all the pressure for an extended period of time. Being a professional myself I know the how much pressure it can be and how fast one's employment situation may change. Also secretly concerned that he would turn into an a** and me turning into the chief housemaid after a while. DH is a very sweet caring person, but hey people behave differently under long period of pressure
B. and yes I do plan to come back to the workforce. However, the whole baby thing can easily take more than 12 months from start to ready for interview assuming all goes very quickly and well. I am scared to death that I won't ever come back with a similar pay even though I feel like underpaid today for the amount of efforts (@ 6K/mo take home today, but work very long hours with demanding boss and frequent biz travels) We have set the goals for ourselves a while back for early retirement (2M by 45, inflation adjusted + plus paid off house), now it's about 10 years away based on our age, and we are about halfway. If I quit, and don't come back to a similar pay this goal will be shattered! But at the same time I don't know if I can go through pregnancy and remain sane if I stay at this job much longer or start a new job (personally think it's a bad idea to go down the learning curve and being pregnant). If for whatever reason the baby plan doesn't pan out soon, I kind of get myself stuck in the possibility of new(possibly lower paid) job+ prego scenario for a while. Painful just to think about it.
I think by the end of the day, the key problem is that I am so drained with my current job, otherwise would have been able to start a family while working like most regular people do, and worse off, I start to feel like burned out at an early age and not sure if I want to come back to a corporate job. Hence the retirement goal problem. Should I just suck it up till maternity leave and try not to punch anybody in the office in the meantime, and move to a new job for another 10 years be done with it, or risk longer working years and with a likely lower paid job(with uncertainty level of happiness) by taking a break now???