In what universe, where on this entire earth is $8M not enough to retire and live well on?
You must be riddled with fear and insecurity and have absolutely no sense of self-worth unless you work.
What is even worse - you work for someone else!
It doesn't really matter which unfair treatment/situation finally made your blood boil.
It is a clear sign that subconsciously you have finally had enough of all the corporate BS.
Pay attention - forget this mess, think of your own health and happiness and that just maybe your wife and kids might be thrilled to spend some one-on-one time with you.
Use this long weekend to forge a plan for the next stage in your life.
You are a smart guy you will carve out a wonderful, soul-satisfying life for yourself the instant that you decide to give yourself permission to do so.
Deep breath - you will be fine.
All you need is a new purpose in life, you said you already sorta looked into being a jobless bum and didn't thrive on it. So do sumptin'.
You could.....forget about your own problems for a while - your drama is self-created after all/S:)
Use your talents to fix some of the unfairness in our world. You must be sizzling with energy and obviously enjoy solving problems for others.
You are the perfect man for the job!
What bugs you the most? Surely something in our often totally unfair world moves your heart and makes you want to step in and help?
Can you build a decent quality permanent tiny house community for seniors who are just fine - except, they can't afford to pay rent?
Or buy a duplex apartment with eight or more units somewhere near a bus stop and at least a grocery store, thrift store... to walk to?
Fix it up - ask say zero to $100-$250 in rent depending on their situation.
Not just finances, if the meds take up all their extra money it doesn't matter that on paper they have a 'liveable' income.
We have people on this forum who have flipped small bungalows and rent them at a low price; with specific criteria to help others in mind.
Would you be perfect as a mentor for a teen to help them find their way in life?
What about fundraising efforts for a good cause like a shelter for abused women or the local homeless shelter for cats, dogs, humans?
Or one of my favorites do something, anything that benefits mother earth - help her breathe and become healthy, lush and green again.
You mentioned you liked camping
would you enjoy setting up a program for kids involving nature? Save a wilderness area from a developer? Bring some green into the concrete jungle of our cities?
Help build a start-up that focuses on solving an environmental issue?
Could you set up a daycare center for working moms/dads from the ground up in an area where it is most needed? Then duplicate that success, find a place, find the funding, keep it running?
Can you devise a great program for say 25 homeless or 10 homeless families? Find/set a criteria that works and helps people get back on their feet?
or re-organize, improve an existing program?
You don't have to commit to lifelong service to humanity - I get it, you are not Mother Theresa:) you are just looking for support to take the next step.
Focusing on something beyond the misery of your self-constructed prison walls made of money and status will go a long way towards a complete re-set.
Become involved with fighting for those who cannot help themselves because they are too old, too young, too sick or too fragile and unsuited for our harsh world. You have the energy and the drive to make any project a success - the world needs people like you.
I have a sticker that says, "no fear - no limits", it is a good reminder of the limits and expectations we place on ourselves.
Find the courage to live your life on your own terms.
Money and status can become addictive and hold us captive like a slave.
Lifestyle creep is real whether one has $2000 a month to spend or $250K.
But that isn't your real problem, your problem is finding a new purpose and identity that makes you feel good about yourself and your life.
You appear lost in a world where money, status, and having the right position and influence are what defines the worth of a man.
You worked hard to get where you are and it is something to be proud of. Congratulations:) - you won!
You made it to the top of the food chain - savor it while you can and move on when things become unbearable.
Moving on when the time has come is what all the smart people do and in your gut, you know it. There is nothing wrong with taking your time and drifting a bit while you consider your next venture. Relax, the world is your oyster.
You got $8M saying how capable you are - go forth - do sumptin' - do nothing - do good - or if and when you want to start a new business venture of your own.
Sorry for the long post but I think at this stage of the game no f$$$ing fire calculator in the world is going to help you see the light.
