Hello MMM forums. I am long-time lurker and this will be my first post.
The job: I work in agriculture (overtime exempt), my job title is pretty specialized. I am not going to post my title because it will be too revealing. I took this job right out of college after doing a similar job for 2 years while I attended school. The benefits are good, I have subsidized housing, healthcare and vacation. I have gotten two raises and think it's going to pretty much stagnate from this point. I make a little less than 50k a year working about 2500 hours. I work pretty long hours sometimes and usually do not know what time I will get home. (I do not enjoy this as I like some personal time in my day.) The hours can vary greatly depending on time if year.
After settling in and establishing my job I have tried to take on some more responsibility to ensure being busy and possibly getting a raise. However, most of the things they have me doing seems like dumb tasks to keep me busy while the person above me spreads himself too thin and is constantly running around like a chicken with his head cut off. It is hard to explain as the dynamics of the owner and his helper (the person I go to) are somewhat strange.
Basically I have 20.6k student loans paid down from about 40k after graduating in 2013. (Paying 3x minimum or more depending on montly income) I have avoided lifestyle inflation as much as possible. However, I am afraid to leave as I may not have cheap of rent and moderate income to put towards my loans again. (So maybe that is a form of lifestyle inflation) I am losing my mind at this job though. I interviewed for a similar job earlier this year, but did not get it. (Jobs similar to my title are few and far between) I really don't have a specific career path in mind, but I now know I don't want to be a farmer. I feel like there has to be something more out there or they could use my abilities more efficiently.
tl;dr: 20.6k loans, making around 50k. Losing my mind at work, feeling pretty hopeless, afraid to leave because maybe this is the best I can get with my degree and just want my loans gone. No idea what kind of job I would do next (I don't want to be a farmer).
Any suggestion/tips/ideas are much appreciated. I am sorry if this was more of a rant. I have been internally struggling with this situation for almost a year and it's hard to articulate at this point.