I need to change my career path (such as it is) and I'm not sure what to do or how to go about doing it.
I'm 34. My life passion has been music, and I came of age at a time when that industry was booming and careers there were possible (the 90s). I expanded my skill set to many branches in the music industry so that I could be versatile, but the truth is getting job in any aspect of the music industry now is like winning the lottery, and I'm not just talking about being a "rock star" or whatever; there are a lot of reasons for this I won't go into now. That's okay, because in the 20 years I spent studying, practicing, and seeking work, I discovered I just want to make my own music for myself, for fun.
The jobs I was able to get while trying to pursue what I was skilled at and passionate about were mostly office administration and personal assisting. Reader, I have come to loathe these jobs, and moreover, I'm not even particularly great at them. I just have a lot of experience, FWIW.
So, my skill assets are in a field I will never find work in, and my experience assets are in a field I am exhausted by and don't want to do anymore. I still have about $26k in student debt, so going back to school is not an option for me right now. I barely got by in math and sciences (though I was very interested in the latter, I just couldn't hack it) when I was in school. I only excelled in the arts and social sciences, unfortunately.
I like working with my hands to achieve tangible results, and I can not stand having someone breathing down my neck while I work. I have an anxiety disorder and I do my worst work when I'm under a lot of pressure. I'm curious about working to fight climate change, but I'm afraid I'm not good at anything that would be helpful.
I feel stuck and I don't know what my options are. Sorry about this disjointed post, I get overwhelmed thinking about it and it's hard to make sense of it.