I love, love and appreciate the feedback from everyone! It’s these insights that I enjoy from this community.
The TL;DR is that I believe I'm only 2 classes away from applying to the nursing program. Getting this confirmed on Monday. So I'm going to take those two classes this spring to give me options for the Summer/Fall. This would also give me a good gauge to see how committed I truly am. I love learning and a good challenge so I'm excited to get started!
I think one thing that personally bothers me quite a bit is that I feel like I’ve underachieved in life. I’ve thought of switching careers years ago, especially my 1st year because it was a horrible situation all around (all the worst kids were put in my class in a “trial” program the principal wanted to pilot). I wouldn’t wish this on anyone let alone, a new teacher. I still remember as a broke recent college grad, I spent my last $200 to purchase school supplies for my students... only to see them break, rip, and throw the materials across the room. To be honest, I’m still traumatized by that experience. On my worst days, I like a glorified babysitter and it literally eats away at my soul. It’s one thing to push and encourage a student to be successful and work through the frustrations when they are being disrespectful. But when it’s March and you’ve been dealing with the same issues since Day 1, same kid(s), and the student(s) still won’t do something as simple as take out their pencil and put their name on a piece of paper…again soul draining.
@skp Thank you for bringing up those great points. I think at the end of the day, everything is relative and I will only know it once I experience it. One thing that frustrates me with disrespectful/apathetic students is that it's not a one-time or even one-month thing. That I can work with and try to improve. Most of the time, these students do it ALL YEAR LONG and it's usually just the same students and the same issues...In addition, it's seeing the great students having to put up with & pay for it is what kills me inside. That's another thing with teaching, I never feel like I'm "off the clock", every night I'll spend at minimum, 1.5 hours (sometimes up to 3-4) to make sure lessons are top-notched & ready to go.
@Morning Glory, curious if we read the same book lol but it allowed me to realize that good enough was good enough. I also started to look at ROI on time and realized there were diminishing returns no matter how much time I spent planning a lesson so that definitely has helped me. I definitely wanted to do some job shadowing but of course, we are in this pandemic so its not realistic right now.
@Sun Hat, I appreciate you sharing your mom’s experience. I enjoy doing things solo as I know that things will get done at a level that is satisfactory to me. I am also quite the team player, helping others where needed, trying to understand where others are coming from, and always try to seek solutions to problems instead of just complaining all the time. I believe if asked, most people (admin or teacher) would say they enjoy working with me.
@OmgLmg – I have a strong feeling that I wouldn’t regret the move either!