... I think I've been denying this truth for far too long. To be honest, I often have a difficult time taking charge of my own life, and I think that's how I ended up in this circumstance. The life I want to live isn't going to magically occur to me, I need to take action until I create it. It's a little embarrassing that I'm only finally "growing up" about this in my mid/late 30s, but I guess better late than never. ...
Similar boat. For various reasons it's possible to feel like you were only actually handed the keys to your own life decades into it, & assessing the road ahead from the driver's seat is then something of a new skill. It's especially strange to realize where you've been sleepwalking when in other facets of life building a strategic plan for the long-term - like FIRE - seemed so natural. Sending moral support!
Thank you for the support! My peer group is full of people with proper careers who take regular vacations and have new experiences, are getting married and having kids, etc. In the instinctual, human process of comparing myself to my community, I'm starting to feel a lot of FOMO. I'm glad that I buckled down and got rid of my debt and gave myself a solid financial platform, but now I want to live, dammit!
I find it helpful that you're reframing it as facets of our lives we sleepwalk through. It's true, I have done other things with intention and had goals that I met.
...Also, I'm not sure where you are but I have a job alert for remote work all over the US and Canada with no specific criteria other than that it's remote, so daily I get a general inventory of what the job market is looking like.
...But yeah, it really shouldn't be hard to either find or skill up to something that pays $30-50/hr.
I ran some searches across the US & Canada just using Google that showed a lot of options in the $20/hr range, though the $30+ generally seem to be certificate-holder positions, teaching, etc. Definitely worth exploring for a reskill. Did you have a preferred search utility? I think I take psychological comfort from just knowing those jobs exist.
Interesting to me was the number of jobs that involved running chat support or compiling reports for companies which, when I looked into them, claimed to their investors/ in press releases they were using bots for what appears to be the same task. I've heard rumors of similar concealed human labor in digital assistants, but it's fascinating to see the levels of middlemen involved in convincing people they have the most competitive technology available (presumably for a staggering markup.)
I'm in the US and I've also found that most of the $30/hr+ jobs require additional certification, schooling, training, etc. Which I'm not against doing--I want to grow and learn--just noting that they don't seem to be things I can jump right into, at least the listings I'm finding. Metalcat, would you mind sharing what job alerts you use for remote work?
Great news, though: I had a job interview for the city park non-profit job I mentioned in my last post! It went well and they said they thought I'd be a great fit and are going to send me specific details on salary and benefits this week. It'll likely pay a bit less than what I make now, but absolutely worth the peace of mind.
While my gut is telling me that I just need to take time off of work, period, at least for a couple months, my brain is telling me not to pass up the opportunity to have something lined up, especially for what sounds like a cool work environment doing meaningful (if humble) work with nice people. They asked when I could start, and I told them that ideally I'd have a few weeks between jobs to decompress and travel, and they seemed understanding of that. My fantasy of what I want to do next is to bounce around the country/globe not tied to an apartment lease or a full-time job for a while. I've spent all of my adulthood in survival mode, it's really hitting me at 38 years old how short life is and how little of the world I've seen. I've lived in the same city for over 15 years, and have never lived anywhere (including college) outside its 50 mile radius.
I have no experience doing anything like this though, I barely know the basics of it though I'm trying to learn by googling other people's travel experiences. It feels like a massive task with a lot of unknowns, but life is about taking on challenges and experiences, so maybe in a sense that's a good thing. I don't know, maybe it's best to start small with the WWOOF thing.
Sorry, just trying to get my thoughts about it out!