Hi everyone, thank you for the kind words, support, and ideas.
The whole ordeal has been very exhausting. I stayed home from work yesterday and finished and submitted his obituary. My Dad was in a business where he came into contact with a huge number of people in a positive way and he had a very, very wide circle of friends. Between that and the fact that he's lived in the same city for 50 years, it seemed worth it to put it in the paper in addition to online. I figure there are a fair number of elderly people who still read the print version of newspaper. Siblings helped me word it and especially helped me find the right picture of him to submit, so that was all good.
But today I went to work and it was really hard to get up and get there. Once I got there I was happy that I made the decision. My job is enjoyable and it was a sunny day to sit outside with friends and colleagues during lunch time. Of course, being on this website, I had packed my lunch, lol. I did treat myself to a fresh squeezed orange juice from the little cafe.
So, being budget conscious myself even though there's really not so much of a need for it in my case, I don't at all blame SM for going with the budget cremation. That's not even on her evil list at all. The urgency with which she did that was unnerving, but perhaps there is a storage fee if you wait past their first available slot? Even with the 3 insurance policies, she's in dire straights financially if she lives very long, and I pointed this out to her last year very bluntly. She hasn't changed her behaviour about some things, but I'm actually glad she didn't go crazy at the expensive funeral home . . . because she would expect us to pay for it, and you're a the same pile of ash after cremation regardless of the price.
I will never forgive SM for what went down, and forgiving people fast is a thing that I normally do. I don't know what exactly went down that led to him being hospitalized, and I was blocked by SM from really finding out. She could have poisoned him . . . or he could have just died from any of his myriad of health problems. At his age, it's not a surprise when someone dies. Even if she did poison him, he had a bunch of prescriptions and she could have OD'ed him on any of them. But, even though I'm not going to forgive her, I don't want her to blacken my heart. I think that's where things would go if I pursued a big inquest into his death.