I felt quite content last Monday when I sold a couple dozen VIX calls for a 50% profit.
Then I felt pretty good about my mid week decision to dial back the 401k from 100% stocks to about 60/40.
Then I felt a bit of gratitude for the long term perspective that allowed me to hold option hedges on most of the rest of my equities even though the market value of these hedges had been declining for months.
Meanwhile, I felt a twinge if regret for selling a couple of puts on CRM a couple weeks ago. That obviously ain’t working out so well. At least I’ll get rid of the shares by selling calls in a high volatility environment.
Yet I should have felt none of these things. I’m studying Roman Stoic philosophy so this is an interesting application for the emotional control and mental tranquility advocated by Seneca, Epictetus, and Marcus Aurelius. By holding both bullish and bearish positions, I’m in a position to find both fortune and misfortune in whatever happens, but to be an emotional yo-yo would be ridiculous. Maybe it’s just an attempt to “feel wise” but overall my solitude comes from using reason to place myself in a position where if stocks go down, I can look forward to pivoting bullish and if stocks go up I will participate in most of the ride. Either outcome ends in my retirement, and the journey there involves more of a focus on life and less of a focus on Marketwatch or Yahoo Finance doom articles.