Malkynn, is there some volunteer origination or hobby or several of them that can provide you with the structure you need? I look to my parents, Dad volunteers at 2 different places on Tuesday and Wednesday and has a weekly club meeting on Thursday so he has some structure. Mom volunteers for 3 mornings a week again with 3 different places so she only had one morning at each place.
lol, oh, you mean on top of the multiple volunteer roles I currently hold?
Yes, I could volunteer more, but that too tends to drive me into excessive productivity. By structure, I don't mean in terms of my schedule, I mean in terms of my mental structure. I naturally moderate regular paid work, but I have a really hard time imposing limits on volunteering, learning, etc.
My ideal is a job that I could do indefinitely, part time, on my own terms, working autonomously and independently, that's flexible, portable, does a public good, is incredibly challenging but doesn't feel like work, and would be very valuable in a lot of volunteer scenarios. Basically, exactly what my existing job is, except without the part where it's permanently, literally crippling me.
I think I might retrain in a different healthcare profession. I'm only in my 30s, and my medical condition doesn't limit me from working, just from working in my profession. I've got a lot of years left to keep myself out of trouble, otherwise I'll end up learning fucking Inuktitut and Finnish.