Have any of you noticed connections between the threads that you post in or read? I see that I am mostly into the following:
Losing weight in 2015
Clearing Out Clutter
No Clothes Shopping in 2015
Using up Fabrics, Sewing and Crafting Supplies
Eat All the Food in Your House
I am seeing a connection between being drained of energy and having too much STUFF whether it is stored food, stored fat on my body, too many clothes, too many unfinished projects or too much paper.
I seem to have spent several years blindly stocking up on body fat, spare toilet paper, lotions and toothpastes, crafting supplies, useless boxes of paper, health supplements and broken things. And, I am seeing that as the fridge gets clear I rush out to buy more food so that once again we have an abundance and once again I struggle to eat it all before it rots. With craft supplies, fancy lotions, fancy health supplements and shoes I get them and never use them. It is as though having them is soothing and if I use them up I feel an anxious urgency to restock, not in order to get a good price but to ease my anxiety.
After all these months of on and off de-cluttering and weight loss and regain and loss again I am seeing trends in my feelings when supplies get low.
Having used up so many things this winter and spring, the idea of going to a Costco type place and stocking up on supplies horrifies me, I can't bear the idea of more stuff sitting around. I have spent months using up jars and bottles of spares and would rather rush out when the shampoo has barely a drop left than stock up ever again. And yet...
... At the same time there are things which I am still resisting using up because I don't want to be without them despite never touching them, ever. With some of them it is because buying them is expensive and so I do not want to deplete my stores. Consequently crafting supplies have hardened in their tubes, lotions have separated, supplements are well past their sell by dates…all wasted and ready to be thrown away.
We have quite a few broken things which others would have tossed out but I have held onto for years and years with the idea that I will repair them. I have even bought broken things at yard sales since they are cheaper and I plan to fix them up but don't.
Is this due to growing up with few new things and no expensive things? What is this mentality and how do I let it go?