I was restructured out a job after 19 years of working corporate engineering jobs. Some of my past jobs were high stress and I was known for managing big workloads. For the past 3 years, I was working 36 hours (4*9) with 1 day off per week. So I already had 1 foot in FIRE.
We have 4 years living expenses saved besides our retirement and my spouse plans to work another 3 years. So, that leaves us roughly 10 years of expenses to cover later. Once we both retire, we plan to work seasonal jobs to cover expenses and travel or relocate regionally to enjoy the things we like.
Right now, I'm struggling to focus. I don't even want to do the things I should do, let alone the volunteering I could do. My list of things I could be doing is big such as biking or walking, eating better, volunteering, etc. I also don't want to work on my resume. However, I know that I should find a 1 or 2 year job now to cover health insurance costs and charitable donations before 59.5 Or I could get a part time job now which could serve me for the next 15 years until retirement accounts are available. I just don't know where to focus my efforts and I don't really care to focus.
So what I am asking in my ramble is when did your brain settle? How did you figure out what to do next? I think part of my problem is regaining self motivation/worth when my world is much smaller now. I did imagine my life post retirement and have joined a few clubs and have hobbies.
I know I could convert my retirement accounts to gain access to them now but I would rather let them mature for safety's sake.