@partgypsy Hugs if you want them.
Thank you. Honestly it was strange. She would be OK during the day, but in the evening and night the last couple weeks, she would not leave me be. It's like she knew something wasn't right and wanted me to fix it.
I would do the various things that normally would work, like give her food, or cream, and sometimes she would eat a little or drink a little, but 5, 10 minutes later she would be back. The whole time I had her she used to love drinking out of the bath faucet that I would set dripping for her. during this time when I would put her in the bathtub and set the water dripping she refused to drink the water.
Especially at night the only thing that comforted her was me holding her and moving her around.
When it was time to go, took her to the vets office. She wasn't scared or in fear, she seemed at home.
The vet's office is in a old house and the examining room has 3 big windows that look out onto front porch and street beyond. After the shot, she wanted to keep looking out the windows so I set up a couple chairs so she could keep looking out. When I could tell she was getting weaker, I took her in my arms, and I walked around for a little while talking to her, and then ended up standing so she could keep looking out the window, until her head slumped to one side. As I didn't want to cut off her breathing I lay her down on the towel on the examining table, made her comfortable and talked just a little just so she knew I was there. The vet came in and out I think a total of 3 times to check on her. The last time we talked about things until we knew she had passed. It was actually much more peaceful than our other two dogs who both died at home. I was glad that I could give her her dignity and final rest.