Today was my last full day at work before I start a new job on Monday. We had happy hour scheduled and for the past few days I was just catching up with a few old co-workers and informing them that it would be my last week there.
Before giving my notice, there were rumors that we were going to have a re-org because our main initiative was a cluster fuck. We spent two years and pulled a lot of people from existing groups to get this project rolling and when we did show it to our customers it flopped. So 4 months ago we had a informal re-org where everyone was reshuffled to realign focus. All it did was confuse the teams even more, create more dependencies and delay the project even more. Nothing was accomplished in the past 4 months. On top of that our company was acquired so moral and productivity went from 20% to about -30%.
When I accepted the offer from a new company I seriously considered asking to be put on the "list" if there was one and volunteer to fall on the sword. The only reason I did not follow through on making the request was due to timing. The new company wanted me to start right away and I couldn't even give a full two weeks notice so I decided against it as I felt the timing was to short and that somehow I was being too greedy. I was already in a good position and didn't want to complicate matters.
Well today, which was really yesterday morning, my friend walks by and I noticed a meeting was canceled and I asked her why. She then responds that it was canceled indefinitely and said I'm outta here, with a tone of permanence in her voice. I then walk her out and she informed me that there were layoff going on and a list of positions were eliminated. As I looked at the list, I couldn't help think that one of the positions could have been me if I would have just asked or event waited a week to give my notice. But then the sense of greed started to creep in. I tried to dismiss my disappointment and hide it out of respect for my friend. I then learn more of my old co-workers being let go and the day basically went down hill from there. I was expecting the day to be bitter sweet as I said good by to my old co-workers but this was just to much of an emotional roller coaster.
A lot of good friends were let go and some people with 10, 15, even 24 years at the company were let go. They all got pretty generous severance packages, but one is a new dad, another hasa kid in private school and even though they make good money her income is still needed to maintain their lifestyle.
So happy hour wasn't so happy as a lot more people were there saying good byes as beers turned into shots. I have been through my share of layoffs, never actually being part of one and always fantasizing about what I would do if I were given a package. This one felt different as if I was actually part of one. All I know is I do not want to be dependent on a job and motivation for FIRE has just been reignited, not that it wasn't on medium before, it's just on Really HIGH right now.
When I got home I told my wife all about it and the emotional toll I was going through. That's when I looked her in the eye and said, "this is why we save the way we do, I never want to be put in that position." No matter how much I try to manage my career and keep my skills in demand there are just thing outside of my control. The stash is big enough for FU status but not enough to FIRE. Time to review my spread sheets and make some tweaks to bring my FIRE date from 7-8 years out to something much closer.
How close is your date?